For frenz who knew my previous relationship, you'd have agreed wif me that both songs represent tat relationship perfectly.. I've lost him.. Lost him to death.. My heart's broken.. 3 yrs of uncertainty.. Bt nw tat I noe the "truth", I've lost him again.. Hw much more heartache can my small heart take? Hw much more tears can I pour out? Ever since I've known the truth, I knew part of me would be with him forever.. No enough of laughter can fill up tat hole in my heart.. Dreams 5 had touched my heart & filled up the part of the hole.. Bt last Sat incident had again open up my wound.. The heartbeat tat I've long forgotten.. The uncertainty.. The yearning to be loved.. The long forgotten feeling of being loved.. If only none of tat happened on Sat..... Bt I dun blame my frenz for trying to help matchmake.. I only blame myself for being so weak.. So stubborn for holding on.. Holding onto nothing.. Holding onto memories.. Maybe I'm afraid.. Maybe I'm afraid tat I'll one day forget all tat had happened between us.. Maybe I'm afraid tat one day I'd forget this man, the one man who'd once promised me forever.. I'd loved him, more than anyone would've imagine a small heart is capable of loving.. Would anyone still love me like he did? Would I let tat person (if there's any) go like I once let him go? Would I cry my heart out for another person again? The first time since Secondary School I cried in front of people, I cried in front of my best fren because of him.. Becos of tat heart-piercing pain of loss.. I noe I'll nv haf a chance to say sorry.. Bt wad is sorry in love? I loved & love him.. tat's all both of us needa noe.....